- Date: 4/29/16
- Time: 12:20AM
- Location: Bedroom
- Duration: 6:28 (minutes and seconds!)
- # of Edges (Nearly climaxing and then backing away): 3 - 5
- Pass/Fail: Pass
First off, I was not excited going into tonight's session. I was brushing my teeth, looking forward to sleep, when I realized and said aloud, "Fuck! The Challenge!" So, I quickly closed up shop and went to my room to work.
Now, this was an unusual experience. Dr. Nancy had recommended holding off on visualizing women (apparently, that's some advanced level shit), so I kinda just stared at myself jerking off. Honestly, it was quite boring. I was just sitting there, waiting to hit my edge, and nothing was happening. It was about as enjoyable as rubbing my elbow for six minutes straight. I was trying to stay present and experience the sensations. But still, quite boring.
Finally, little edges started to occur. I soon realized that if I had the slightest image of a woman in my mind's eye, I would reach my edge. I was growing tired (I should've been in bed four hours ago) and fantasies kept creeping in. I quickly reached my edge...five times. I was shooting for three, but I hit it five just for safe measure. Now, I'm up and adam. I feel real energized. This turned out to be much less unpleasant than I anticipated. I really was expecting big painful blue balls. Instead, my balls are semi-normal, and I'm just wired and writing about my jerk off session for everyone to read. I'm hoping that I find the beauty in masturbating during these 21-days because it currently feels boring AF.