- Date: 5/19/16
- Time: 1:19AM
- Location: Bedroom
- Duration: 9:18
- # of Edges (Nearly climaxing and then backing away): 3
- Pass/Fail: PASS
Phenomenal day. The majority of the day, I felt confident and present. This presence allowed me to see connections and coincidences occurring all around me, which made me feel tapped into the flow/chi/universe/great-one-spirit/whatchamacallit. E.g., I was buying a sandwich at a grocery store, when I saw a friend who I haven't seen in over a year. He was shocked to see me because just fifteen minutes prior, he received a text from his girlfriend asking for him to connect us. She's a producer and wants to talk about Sex Talk With My Mom! Hooray for friends' support!
Tonight's masturbation session went exceptionally well given this state of presence. I was highly aware of how to control my urges to climax and even teased myself by consciously slipping in some fantasizing. I'm now aware that when I feel myself reaching my edge, I can relax my Kegel muscles, and my penis will not contract. The contraction of these muscles is what leads me to orgasm, so when I relax them, I'm able to hold off on ejaculating. This is a huge breakthrough!
Growing physically and emotionally,