- Date: 5/8/16
- Time: 1:10AM
- Location: Bedroom
- Duration: 9:27
- # of Edges (Nearly climaxing and then backing away): 3
- Pass/Fail: PASS
I can definitively say that this practice has desensitized me to at least one thing – discussing my masturbation. Recently I've found myself talking with my friends about this challenge, and a few times it's gotten to a place where I make them feel uncomfortable! Just tonight I was telling my best friend how my this challenge has raised my bodily awareness to the point where I now can control the opening and closing of my butt hole. He reacted probably as you are right now, in squeamish disgust. How I did not see this reaction coming, I do not know. I'm concerned for how I'll be speaking in the future, if this has only been one week.
It's getting harder and harder to get hard. Perhaps that's because these masturbation sessions are occurring later in the evening or when I'm really tired. I have been trying not to fantasize during these sessions. Dr. Nancy recommended that I start the challenge by just focusing on my bodily sensations without distracting myself with imagined visuals. I think for Week Two I'll venture into the visualizations a bit. I'll follow up with her first, but I think it'll make things a bit less boring.
I must retire. I had a very long hour as a birthday Spider-Man today. The kids were jumping all over me (one kept slapping my ass), and I could barely see out of the spidey costume. It was like trying to corral a herd of cats in the dark. Needless to say, the face painting did not go over that well. One girl insisted that I paint her a second image because her first butterfly looked like a blob and her dad said she should ask for another.
Over and out,